Updated: Feb 13
It’s 1:30am and I’m awake, back at the computer. He’s made it clear. I’m hindering again. I thought I knew what I would be posting this morning, yet here I sit, starting over.
I spent yesterday questioning what He wanted me to say as we begin this blog - this new facet of our ministry. I’ve asked Him over and over to give me direction, to show me what I need to share. And as He so often does, when my mind finally stills, He tells me, “I've already told you, you’re the one who keeps questioning it.” He inevitably hits me right between the eyes with MY SELF and I have to laugh each time He does it, because I see what I’m doing so clearly in those moments…
Struggling, I plead with Him to give me direction, because I’ve complicated the message so much that I’m left not knowing exactly what I should say. Then that familiar fear sets in and I start listening to Satan whispering in my ear… what are you thinking? You can’t do this. You’re going to fail. And just like that, I’m off course and questioning everything.
Such is the essence of - unhindered.
How many times do we question God?
Even when we already know what He’s told us.
Even when we already know what He’s called us to do.
I’m sitting here, my mind flooded with the stories of all those imperfect men and women who have gone before us. We read about how they questioned God throughout the pages of scripture, yet we still don’t see it in our own lives. After all these years, at this point in my walk with Him, stepping out in faith to begin this new ministry - how is it that He still has to look at me and say, “Why are you so fearful? How is it that you have no faith?” (Mark 4:40)
It’s so very easy to listen to Satan and question what God has already told us. Just like Eve, somewhere in my being, I want to believe that I know what’s best. That perhaps God isn’t telling me everything and I need to do it a different way. A more efficient way? Perhaps a more entertaining way. I wish you could hear me chuckling, realizing I’m just hanging out with my homegirl Eve again. yep. again.
So here I am, once more.
Changing directions because I got off course trying to decide what would be best to post on the kick off of unhindered, when He’s already told me. In essence, hindering unhindered. (Laughing out loud this time!)
Here I am once more, realizing His message is so very simple. I am the one who chooses to complicate it.
Here I am once more, simply being real. Hoping that we can all be real together and stop hindering what God desires to do in and through each one of us, for the furtherance of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, to the glory of God.
So here I am, surrendered.
So God can work through me, unhindered.
Yet not my will, but yours be done. Luke 22:42
Lord use the words you’ve given me to help others know that you love them just as they are. You’ve already shown us how much. Help us to stop questioning you and simply believe.